Saddness In A Jar....=(

So....Recently my mom has been admitted to the hospital for phenomena...Because she has been sick with it for 3 weeks now...which is pretty scary..But it's even more scary for her because she has existing health problems already that will eventually kill her=(........She has Polycystic Kidney Disease and Asthma....I've known ever since i was little how my mom was gunna die...can you imagine knowing the pain your parents are gunna go through as they die?....Well my moms mom had the Polycystic disease too and i watched how she slowly died and faded into nothing..which was hard for me to do because i loved her so much...but also my grandma had other health problems too...So now im in the hospital day and night with my mom watching over her and hoping and praying she gets better!.....

But thats not it!..................

My lovely boyfriend of 2 years is stubborn....So lately he's been in massive pain and i've been trying to convince him to call 911 or ill take him to the hospital or call his brother or mom to take him to get checked out because it could be really serious....But nooooooooo he insist on being stubborn!...But finally i convinced him to let me call 911 for him and i did....Thank God!....Because he found out that he was having kidney failure...which means ( for those who don't know) that he was going to die in his apartment if i had not called for help which is scarier....Im glad and he's glad that i called when i did...I don't know what i would have done if he had died.....

Ima 90'S Kid

Youre a 90s kid if,








You remember watching:-Kenan and Kel-Doug-Ren & Stimpy-Pinky and the Brain-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!-Rockos modern Life-Animaniacs-Gargoyles-Tom and Jerry [when they didnt talk]-Hey Arnold-Out of the Box-Bear in the Big Blue HouseYou've ever ended a sentence with the word PSYCHE!You just cant resist finishing this . . . In west Philadelphia born and raised...You remember:-Step by Step-Family Matters-Dinosaurs-Boy Meets WorldYou remember when it was actually worth getting up earlyon a Saturday to watch cartoons.When everything was settled by:-rock paper scissors or-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or-miss mary mackWhen kick ball was something you did everyday!!You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.You always wanted to send in a tape to Americas Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.You remember watching:-The Magic School Bus-Wishbone-Reading Rainbow-Ghostwriter on PBSYou remember when Yo-Yos were cool.And you played with Silly Puddy and Sticky Tac that you stole from the teachers walls.You remember those Wheres Waldo books.Those awsome buzz lightyear shoes that light up.You remember eating Warheads and Splashers GumYou remember watching:-The 1st Batman-Aladdin-Ninja Turtles-Ghost BustersYou remember Ring Pops!!!If you remember when every thing was da BOMB!You remember boom boxes . vs.cd playersYou played and/or collected PogsYou had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere you wentYou watched the original cartoons of-Rugrats-Wild Thornberrys-Power Rangers-Rocket Power.All your school supplies were Lisa Frank brandIf you collected those:-Beanie Babies-Yu Gi Oh and Pokemon cards-Coins with the states on them-Carebears-Silver dollars, which were cool to have-Everyone watched the WBIf you even know what an original walkman is..You know the Macarena by heartTalk to the hand . . .enough said.You went to McDonalds to play in the playplace..Before the MySpace frenzy.....Before the Internet & text messaging ......Before Sidekicks & iPods .Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360Before Spongebob .....When light up sneakers were cool and you had spiral spring shoelacesWhen you rented VHS tapes, not DVDsWhen gas was $1.When we recorded stuff on VCRYou had slap bracelets!You Actually played outside until it was dark!Way back-Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

?Friends?

So lately I've been thinking about this person and even been having dreams about this person...( She Shall Remain Nameless ) She and this other person did some nasty things to my friend they treated her diirty!....They called her names and said things about her that werent true. Now this lady ill call her Ms.G she has a secret that she has been keeping from her husband. But yet she told everyone this secret. That she is cheating on her husband when he leaves out of town. She said that she doesn't love him and never has and the only reason she married him is because they had kids together. Now to me thats some diiirrrttttyyy crap. Now Ms.G took my two friends in because they were having some family issuses. Now my friend ( Im Gunna Call Her Eve) Eve in the end ended up getting trashed by the girl and Ms.G for some things that she never did. So Sometime after graduation Eve's diploma got sent out to Ms.G's house and Ms.G was mad at Eve so she told her that she wasn't going to give Eve her Diploma and Eve called me. Eve told me about what was going on so i helped her get it back.

But the other girl that lived in that house was and thats a big capital W.A.S.! my friend for years. But to me our friendship was coming to an end because she always lied to me and i always caught her in her lie's. For example one of the other girls i was friends with said she was pregnant and that next day she would say she was pregnant. Now to me thats not something you joke or lie about because thats another human life your messing with. To me being pregant is a serious thing and shouldn't be taken lightly. So it was like every other month she was say she was pregnant and not pregnant it all just didn't add up. I don't know ive saved this girl from so many ass whoopings that she did deserve but because she was my friend i wasn't gunna let someone beat her up ( Even Though I Wish I Did Now).

When I took my friends side because taking someone's diploma something they work hard for is just not right no matter the situation but they felt that they were right and we were wrong. But the one thing I don't understand that people do is when they get mad at you they delete you from their myspace like it's gunna hurt your feeings and thats the first thing she did, I will never ever understand that.

But at frist when all this happend i was totally fine with not being her friend anymore because alot things she did and said were wrong and she knows it weather she wants relize it or not. But it's okay because i don't associtate myself with people like her who have no goals in life and when guy says i love you you feel like you need to open your legs and is a backstabbing conkneving bitch to me. But recently iv'e been havign dreams about her and thinking about her and i don't know why?....

It's confusing to me and i don't know why im having the dreams or why i even think about her....I don't miss her because all our conversations ever consisted of was guys,guys,guys and i can have a better more interesting conversation than that. I just....I don't Know...Im just confused.....

Well im going back to bed now....Im sleepy like always...lol...Goodmorning to those who are awake...and Goodnight to those who are going back to bed!