Saddness In A Jar....=(

So....Recently my mom has been admitted to the hospital for phenomena...Because she has been sick with it for 3 weeks now...which is pretty scary..But it's even more scary for her because she has existing health problems already that will eventually kill her=(........She has Polycystic Kidney Disease and Asthma....I've known ever since i was little how my mom was gunna die...can you imagine knowing the pain your parents are gunna go through as they die?....Well my moms mom had the Polycystic disease too and i watched how she slowly died and faded into nothing..which was hard for me to do because i loved her so much...but also my grandma had other health problems too...So now im in the hospital day and night with my mom watching over her and hoping and praying she gets better!.....

But thats not it!..................

My lovely boyfriend of 2 years is stubborn....So lately he's been in massive pain and i've been trying to convince him to call 911 or ill take him to the hospital or call his brother or mom to take him to get checked out because it could be really serious....But nooooooooo he insist on being stubborn!...But finally i convinced him to let me call 911 for him and i did....Thank God!....Because he found out that he was having kidney failure...which means ( for those who don't know) that he was going to die in his apartment if i had not called for help which is scarier....Im glad and he's glad that i called when i did...I don't know what i would have done if he had died.....

Ima 90'S Kid

Youre a 90s kid if,








You remember watching:-Kenan and Kel-Doug-Ren & Stimpy-Pinky and the Brain-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!-Rockos modern Life-Animaniacs-Gargoyles-Tom and Jerry [when they didnt talk]-Hey Arnold-Out of the Box-Bear in the Big Blue HouseYou've ever ended a sentence with the word PSYCHE!You just cant resist finishing this . . . In west Philadelphia born and raised...You remember:-Step by Step-Family Matters-Dinosaurs-Boy Meets WorldYou remember when it was actually worth getting up earlyon a Saturday to watch cartoons.When everything was settled by:-rock paper scissors or-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or-miss mary mackWhen kick ball was something you did everyday!!You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.You always wanted to send in a tape to Americas Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.You remember watching:-The Magic School Bus-Wishbone-Reading Rainbow-Ghostwriter on PBSYou remember when Yo-Yos were cool.And you played with Silly Puddy and Sticky Tac that you stole from the teachers walls.You remember those Wheres Waldo books.Those awsome buzz lightyear shoes that light up.You remember eating Warheads and Splashers GumYou remember watching:-The 1st Batman-Aladdin-Ninja Turtles-Ghost BustersYou remember Ring Pops!!!If you remember when every thing was da BOMB!You remember boom boxes . vs.cd playersYou played and/or collected PogsYou had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere you wentYou watched the original cartoons of-Rugrats-Wild Thornberrys-Power Rangers-Rocket Power.All your school supplies were Lisa Frank brandIf you collected those:-Beanie Babies-Yu Gi Oh and Pokemon cards-Coins with the states on them-Carebears-Silver dollars, which were cool to have-Everyone watched the WBIf you even know what an original walkman is..You know the Macarena by heartTalk to the hand . . .enough said.You went to McDonalds to play in the playplace..Before the MySpace frenzy.....Before the Internet & text messaging ......Before Sidekicks & iPods .Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360Before Spongebob .....When light up sneakers were cool and you had spiral spring shoelacesWhen you rented VHS tapes, not DVDsWhen gas was $1.When we recorded stuff on VCRYou had slap bracelets!You Actually played outside until it was dark!Way back-Before we realized all this would eventually disappear

?Friends?

So lately I've been thinking about this person and even been having dreams about this person...( She Shall Remain Nameless ) She and this other person did some nasty things to my friend they treated her diirty!....They called her names and said things about her that werent true. Now this lady ill call her Ms.G she has a secret that she has been keeping from her husband. But yet she told everyone this secret. That she is cheating on her husband when he leaves out of town. She said that she doesn't love him and never has and the only reason she married him is because they had kids together. Now to me thats some diiirrrttttyyy crap. Now Ms.G took my two friends in because they were having some family issuses. Now my friend ( Im Gunna Call Her Eve) Eve in the end ended up getting trashed by the girl and Ms.G for some things that she never did. So Sometime after graduation Eve's diploma got sent out to Ms.G's house and Ms.G was mad at Eve so she told her that she wasn't going to give Eve her Diploma and Eve called me. Eve told me about what was going on so i helped her get it back.

But the other girl that lived in that house was and thats a big capital W.A.S.! my friend for years. But to me our friendship was coming to an end because she always lied to me and i always caught her in her lie's. For example one of the other girls i was friends with said she was pregnant and that next day she would say she was pregnant. Now to me thats not something you joke or lie about because thats another human life your messing with. To me being pregant is a serious thing and shouldn't be taken lightly. So it was like every other month she was say she was pregnant and not pregnant it all just didn't add up. I don't know ive saved this girl from so many ass whoopings that she did deserve but because she was my friend i wasn't gunna let someone beat her up ( Even Though I Wish I Did Now).

When I took my friends side because taking someone's diploma something they work hard for is just not right no matter the situation but they felt that they were right and we were wrong. But the one thing I don't understand that people do is when they get mad at you they delete you from their myspace like it's gunna hurt your feeings and thats the first thing she did, I will never ever understand that.

But at frist when all this happend i was totally fine with not being her friend anymore because alot things she did and said were wrong and she knows it weather she wants relize it or not. But it's okay because i don't associtate myself with people like her who have no goals in life and when guy says i love you you feel like you need to open your legs and is a backstabbing conkneving bitch to me. But recently iv'e been havign dreams about her and thinking about her and i don't know why?....

It's confusing to me and i don't know why im having the dreams or why i even think about her....I don't miss her because all our conversations ever consisted of was guys,guys,guys and i can have a better more interesting conversation than that. I just....I don't Know...Im just confused.....

Well im going back to bed now....Im sleepy like always...lol...Goodmorning to those who are awake...and Goodnight to those who are going back to bed!

Okay....Im gunna write random crap so try to keep up.....So my cousin eddie started dating this girl emily and emily was a friend of mine and my sister. My cousin and her got together and i thought it was cute and sweet at first then it just started to get plain out just disrespectful to me!...My cousin eddie was a virgin until he met her i didn't realize that emily was...lets see how do i put this without being rude???...???...???...Ill just say sexually active even though...the proper word is whore...but anyways...Now eddie told his sister that him and emily have had sex on the side of my aunti's house and she gave him oral in the backseat of the car. Now being a female she should have alittle more respect for herself than that but not only that she should respect my aunts house and her car!...I would never never never never never disrespect my aunts house or property like that not even if i had the chance. But i cant put all the blame on her it's some what eddie's fault too for not respecting his mother. I don't know i was never raised like that...I just...I just...I don't know...But as of now i hate the whore and will freely tell that to her stupid face. she's fricken 17 getting ready to be 18 and acting like she fucking 15 gosh uuuggggh!...it makes me mad just thinking about it!.....





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Okay so in September i am getting my college money to get a car and i have decided that since me and my mom butt heads and never tend to get along and never agree with me being with my current boyfriend. That it would be best if i left, there are alot of things that i do that i really and truly believe she overreacts on. Im excited to go be with my boyfriend and praying things don't fall to shit!....





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The Speed Camera's....I ABSOLUTELY HATE THEM...WITH A FIERY PASSION!!!!!....Me and my cousin erica were having a debate on weather or not those camera's were useful and i believe that the funding we are using for those stupid camera's can be used else where. For example summer jobs or summer camps or different programs for children. People complain that kids are causing trouble and teens are robbing peoples houses. but if we have something stimulating for them to do they wouldn't be causing havoc on the world. Like in gilbert,az kids are turning off peoples electric boxes so when people wake up in the morning its swealtering hott....Now im not saying that this is right but you cant complain when your closing pools and cutting funding or just ending summer programs altogether....Im just saying it don't make any sense to have camera's on one side of the highway and not the other...because the people on the other side of the dam highway are just speedin...doesn't make any sense to me...another thing the 3600 people that were due to show up to court all at the same time that was even more rediculous...I say we should just get rid of them they cause more problems then their worth!





Alright i think im done for now but im sure ill think of something else during the night....Peace!

???Curiosity???

I was just thinking....And wondering....If anyone Has a Family curse?....I mean like something your whole family believes in. Like for me and my family it's our last name....TAYLOR...We as a family and those who joined our family believe our last name is cursed. Because nothing good ever ever ever happens to a TAYLOR!...Like we don't just find $5 bucks on the bathroom floor....We definitely wont ever ever ever win the lottery....and everything that could go wrong....does go wrong for a TAYLOR!......Like the women in our family that wait for the men to pay child support...hahahaha...were lucky if we get $10 cents let alone $100....That's like the main topic of the day...Who's Baby Daddy Paid Child Support Today?....and it's usually 1 out of 30 women which is sad.....And all the women in our family are single if not divorced already!.....I think my Uncle is the only married wait no let me rephrase that "Happily married one in our family......But anyways the point of this is just to hear some of other peoples beliefs or curses in their familys.....Lets hear Some!....So Comment Tell Your Family Curse!

P.S. I FEEL BAD FOR THE PEOPLE WITH THE FIRST NAME TAYLOR!!...

Und3r Construction...(It Seems To Fit).....

Yup thats usually the story of my life....Everything seems to be "Under Construction". My family i mean, now recently i told my cousin erica about some of the problems that are going on in the house. I explained to her that my mom doesn't like some of things she may do or say. I tried to explain to her if you do things to make her angry then she gunna be angry thats just the normal rection right?

Well me im a different story my mom is always mad at me for something. From talking too loud or acting like a kid which i am at heart. Just because im 18 doesn't mean i still cant have alittle kid in me? So i tell everyone i meet when they ask the infamous line "Isn't Your Mom Going To Get Mad At You?" My answer to that question is and always will be "My Mom Is Always Mad At Me For Something, Does It Matter?". Now back to my cousin Erica or Erykah as she likes to be called lol....

I've tried to teach her how to do certain things without my mom getting angry and just saying plain out N0!...(By The Way I Hate That Word..It's So Unpleasent)....I've told her if you want to use the car then you gotta tell her that you got gas money or your friends are giving you gas money. Thats the "Golden Rule" of the car. Or if you want to go somewhere whoever is picking you up must bring you home. (Erica Learned this rule the hard way...lol..). There are just some things you gotta learn how to play the game and ive tried teachin her but my attemps have failed!

So when my family gets into fights they argue for coupple mins or hours depending on subject at hand then afterward the make-up session. The make-up session is like when you see the construction guys paving the roads ( which is a pain in the ass may i might add especially on Gilbert Road) but anyways it's like when they put the asphalt on the road and smooth it out to make it all even. Thats how my family is we don't say sorry we just put th asphalt on top and smooth it out and forget about it. I know what your thinking and i know thats not healthy but...thats just how we deal with our everyday family problems.

So (I love the word So...So...So....So...okay ill stop)....So recently like i said earlier we as a family were supposed to sit down and have this big family talk about some of the things going on. But once again the family talk failed to happen. So me and erica ooppsss Erykah went for a walk and i told her what needed to be said and some of things she should change to continue to stay in the house. But she disagreed with alot things and agreed with few of thiings. Like one of them was her walking around the house looking angry all the time. I mean like someone had just made her eat a whole lemon. And i do have to admit which i told her that ruins peoples moods it makes everyone else feel like they are in a bad mood. especially me!...that plays with my mind it makes me think i did something wrong. Now im not saying you should walk around with biggest cheesey smile but some time you gotta suck it up even if your not happy and smile dam it!....Hell you put it in your emails and texts so why don't you try it for a change? I understand not being fake but hey you gotta at some point get tired of having sour face all the time? wouldn't you?

TRY SMILING =)!....it's does wonders for your face.

Fact: It takes more muscles to frown than to Smile!

Man ive always said that my family should have their own tv show!...It would be bigger thaan american idol i think...We have abnormal family drama...we have drama in situations where there shouldn't be none. Maybe i should do a pitch to a tv station one of these days.

Note To Erykah: It's Like Micheal Jacksons Favorite Song Smile Though Your Heart Is Aching....So Smile..I Mean It Smile!

It'S aLl AbOut Mee...

wow i made a blog never thought i would do this...Man what to say what to say?...My family so screwed up it's confusing from day to day who's mad at who? who's talking about who? But it's okay im dealing with it one day at a time. Like me and my mom for example we butt heads all the time we disagree to agree most well not most of the time all the time. Like with my boyfriend okay...My boyfriend is way older than me. Like 15 years older than me, she doesn't agree with the big age difference and to me it doesn't bother me it's just a number to me. But he also has a felony yes i know felonys are bad but do you judge a person based on that fact alone? I truly blieve in my heart that some mistakes that people make are just bigger than others and they shouldn't be discommunicated with because of a mistake they made years ago. If you're thinking he murder someone he didn't do anything like that. But he has did his time and paid for what he did. But im judging him based on that. He is a good man that just wants to do right and have family just like anyone else on this planet. He will answer to god for what he did some day, but i aint god and neither is my mom so im not going to judge him for his flaws. But anyways my mom feels that nothing is ever going to happen between us that nothing good is going to come of the relationship. That if we ever decided to move in together that i would live in a criminal infested place because of his felony. But im a optmistic person and i don't blieve any of that maybe i am being nieve but who knows. All i know that what i feel when im with him is real it feels real in my heart and im just gunna stick to that.